Struggling, but I’m still trying!

It takes tiny baby steps, but when you’ve fallen off the horse – you’ve got to get back on!  That’s exactly what I’m trying to do.  When I lost all my excess weight back in 2007 I swore I would never put it back on (55 lbs).  Well, I haven’t put it ALL back on, but with 20 extra pounds I can’t get into any of the clothes in my closet!  And I have a bunch of cute clothes that I really miss wearing!

I’m really trying to get my MO JO back..but my lifestyle has changed so drastically from what it used to be – I’m not sure what the answer is.  When I say I’m struggling it’s because I know I’m not doing everything I need to do to get back to my “happy place” or my “fighting weight”.  My motivation is low.  

But when I say I’m trying – as half hearted as it may be …here’s proof:ImageMost days I have a protien smoothie and a banana for breakfast.

ImageThen I have my “go to” salad for lunch.  This is romaine, chicken breast, feta cheese, almond slivers, craisins.  My dressing is a light raspberry vinegarette.  Sometimes I add some other fruit, like apples or grapes and some fresh spinach.  This just happened to be what I had in the house that day.  This particular salad helps to curb my sweet tooth as well.  Love all types of salads but this is a fav.

I don’t do as well planning my third (supper) meal of the day.  Lunch is usually our big meal and we often just snack at suppertime. Sometimes it’s just popcorn.  When I say I’m trying it’s because as exhausted as I’ve been…I’ve walked 2.5 miles two days in a row this week!  Not as fast or as far as I used to back in my “healthier” days, but I’m trying.  Today I walked while my 6 yr. old grandson rode his scooter.  Yesterday I walked with my almost 62 yr. old, 50 lbs. overweight, sedentary hubby! LOL  He hates walking, but he knew I was trying to get motivated to go and offered to go with me – isn’t that sweet?

I already have plans to walk with my 13 yr. old grandson tomorrow.  He enjoys walking with his Maw Maw and we have good talks while we are walking too!  What else am I doing?  Well, I’m still stepping on the scale once a week (don’t believe in weighing every day). Stepping on the scale holds me accountable for maintaining.  I’m not losing…but I’m not gaining either.  I’m probably not eating enough to charge my metabolism – and that’s where I say I’m still struggling – cause I’m not tracking my intake of food every day like I used to.  I’ve done it for so many years – I’m just plain tired of doing it!

I’m also not weighing and measuring, since my food scale quit working.  I just need to go buy one and quit making excuses, don’t I?? Grrrrrrrr…Now that I’ve gotten back into walking some, I’m going to try and keep the momentum going until July when I won’t be caring for any grandsons.  Maybe, if I keep trying, in July I can get back to the gym since I’m already paying for a membership that I’m not using!  Ugh.

I have documented my walks with my Map My Walk app on my phone.  I noticed today that they have a new nutrition tracker on there. Hmmmmmmm….


8 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. oneintercessor
    Jun 12, 2014 @ 03:16:17

    I love that type of salad! I’m losing weight at the moment, just trying to do what worked for my husband a few yrs back (high fiber, very low sugar, water, walking/exercise daily). Of course, enough protein is key so each meal I try to get it. It’s hard to be active enough to lose even with this eating plan, but I can’t eat much less so the activity has to be the winner. Keep up the good work–it takes time but it’ll come.


    • bittygirl51
      Jun 13, 2014 @ 03:00:19

      Thanks for the vote of confidence! I know I’ll get there…right now I’m just trying hard not to beat myself up over gaining some of it back! Congrats on the losses. Keep on keeping on!


    • bittygirl51
      Jun 14, 2014 @ 18:03:56

      I so agree! It’s not my eating as much as it’s my almost sedentary lifestyle. I was once much more active than I am currently. I want to get back there – my current care of grandchildren just doesn’t permit it.


  2. A.PROMPTreply
    Jun 12, 2014 @ 20:56:30

    This is a fight my mom has fought for many years. Motivation is the hardest thing to keep hold of. I really feel for you. But you know what they say, exercise brings on the desire for more activity, so little baby steps are for sure leading you in the right direction. You hang in there with it and keep on walking! (Husband very sweet though……don’t walk too fast…you don’t wanna lose that one!)


    • bittygirl51
      Jun 13, 2014 @ 03:01:38

      I appreciate the kind words and support. It’s a battle I never really had to fight until I started having children. Now my issue is post menopause…and too much belly fat!


    • bittygirl51
      Jun 14, 2014 @ 18:05:16

      My mom never had a weight problem! She didn’t really have any weight to lose until she was in her 50’s or 60’s…I don’t recall her ever dieting! I have the best hubby. (I just wish he would join me).


  3. mcwoman
    Jun 13, 2014 @ 15:14:52

    You’re not “trying” you’re doing! As a person who has struggled with weight gain/loss for most of my life, I applaud your efforts. Keep the faith, baby!


    • bittygirl51
      Jun 14, 2014 @ 18:02:13

      Thanks, Barb! I guess by “trying” I just mean…there is more I need to be “doing” that I’m not. Stay tuned for “Part II” and thanks for the encouragement!


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